damnit...IE got hijacked again!
and stp dream i had last nite with uv waling the streets of chinatown i tink...pretty lot of pples..den tink got argument ah...i went to toilet to pee so dirty every cubicle aso got shit 1...

this is what i got for my horo todae Mental discipline is your current order of business. Just don't let your
thinking become so rigid that you miss love, even if it is staring you in
the face. On one hand, your thoughts are particularly cautious now, for
you can see the importance of working within the structures. On the
other hand, you are an Aquarian, aren't you? There's a bit of a rebel
inside you wanting to find a way out into the real world. Even amidst
the noise and confusion, your thinking has obtained new levels of
stability.


sigh.

It could be anyone for everyone.

oh well..escaping work now, tts y im online...gin is also online tho
Nigel (10:38 AM) :
heh.. i notice that you're online mostly on sat morning!
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:39 AM) :
tts cos i dun wanna face my work yet
hahaha

hows everything?
Nigel (10:39 AM) :
oh.. i see...

well... it's not too good.. but not that bad i guess
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:40 AM) :
hmm...haven realli toked to him since den...not sure wats goin on...so u all still hng out as frens?
Nigel (10:40 AM) :
yeah... we're still frens.. heh.. if that's what u mean
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:41 AM) :
haha i mean as friends and not "friends"
haaha if u noe wat i mean:-P
Nigel (10:41 AM) :
er.. they are the same morpheme.. haha...
Nigel (10:41 AM) :
i dunno wat u mena
Nigel (10:41 AM) :
mean
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:42 AM) :
oh no dun ply me with el1101e
hahah
i mean do u all hang out or is there still a barrier kind
Nigel (10:43 AM) :
we still hang out lah...

just that... i dunno... it's like... in front of everyone... we're like acquaintainces
Nigel (10:43 AM) :
when in a group... i feel left out
Nigel (10:43 AM) :
even by my other frens...
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:44 AM) :
does any1 else catch the drift the rift u all having?
Nigel (10:44 AM) :
nah... i dun think so
Nigel (10:44 AM) :
but it's like... he's taken my space in my circle of frens... u get what i mean
Nigel (10:44 AM) :
hmmm.. this sounds like a shrink session.. heh
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:45 AM) :
oh how come?
he got extra frenli with them?

shrink?ahha yes small man:-)
Nigel (10:45 AM) :
it's like.. u know how socialable he is... and i sort of neglected my frens to be with him.. now it's like they are closer to him than to me
Nigel (10:46 AM) :
haha... u know wat i mean about shrink

(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:46 AM) :
so how do u feel abot that?

Nigel (10:47 AM) :
how do u think i feel about that?
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:49 AM) :
well...du lan loh
but u cant sae aniting aso
Nigel (10:50 AM) :
yeah.. it's also my fault lah.. i mean.. of course u would rather hang out with mr cheery than mr gloomy...
but it's not easy lah...
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:51 AM) :
u gloomy all the time?
Nigel (10:52 AM) :
dunno.. when i'm in the group with them... when i feel left out sometimes
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:54 AM) :
hmm maby u shd just make an excuse and time-out for yaself to get a breather
in any case..i wldnt noe if tts howmaur handles such situations after a breakup cos i nvr c himin 1....maby its a passing phase...u wld get ya frens bac:>


Nigel (10:55 AM) :
how to time out? if he's not with me.. i'll feel that he's ignoring me..
when he's with me and our frens... he has nothing to say to me
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:57 AM) :
y not jus dun join them?can end the consternation
Nigel (10:57 AM) :
i do join them.. but how do u feel if u're in a group and feel left out?
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (11:00 AM) :
i take a walk...well tt depends where u all are lah
Nigel (11:00 AM) :
yeah.. i guess..

anyway.. enough about me.. how about you? any plans today?
Nigel (11:01 AM) :
maur was saying we should go karaoke someday! heh.. and there's still the sakae sushi buffet
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (11:01 AM) :
i wanted to go fort canning to join a mass yoga session 1...free summore...but i tink ppl hard to jio
haah

karaoke ah...ya loh..when?sch got open 1 leh

(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (11:01 AM) :
o i mean clementi got 1
Nigel (11:02 AM) :
heh.. not too soon lah.. clementi 1 cheap or not?
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (11:03 AM) :
not bad leh quite cheap..forgot the prices laioz...but its at where the macs is loh
ay go find a dae leh den can go over happy hr
heheheh

Nigel (11:03 AM) :
haha.. yeah... after all the projects and mid terms.. which should be over by now actually
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (11:04 AM) :
i hardli started on my paper ah!
after mon lah...den muz conc laioz...cant wait for the hols!
hahaha

so wat r u doin todae aso?wallow?hahha(jus kidding)
Nigel (11:05 AM) :
oops.. sorry.. i have to go now... i'll chat with u another time.. going to church to help out with the production of a musical... ie. props
Nigel (11:05 AM) :
see ya and take care!
Nigel (11:05 AM) :
and next time u see maur.. help me whack him! hehehe...
Nigel (11:05 AM) :
bye
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (11:05 AM) :
haha ok den
godbless!:>



aniwae monk smsed to apologise i guess...talked a lil with daryl yest nite..woke me up frm my dreams..hehehe...din go for bball tho...went to sch clinic and doc now thinks im psycho...haha cos i told him so...den went directly down to clementi polyclinic to get my referal letter....so date is set 4th march for my ENT...hehehe
caimin called me up earlier on thur to ask me abt her shoes...cant rem a darned thing abt it...tink lost laio ah..muz email the rest...to ask..

oh i suddenli rem the motobike stunt on one of my last few sessions of tuition...so weird...tink driver hao lian cos got factory gals walking out...den he rode on 1 wheel...made a lot of noise..

ah and heard wanen's gonna be attached soon..wished her well....dunno where auntie go aso...so long nvr contact her laioz

i just hope no1 finds my blog...writing for no1 now..so not much fanfare actually..just down to the gritty details...thinking my sinus may be back..sigh

ah i watched a dogme 95 film last night on central..it's all about love...made me think that if love was the fuel for human life in the future, any1 without it will die...imagine how we can all give our love freely and to many pple in order to just to survive....with the loss of it-children hating u, husband leaving u, one might die unless it goes off to find comfort in other sorts of love...imagine if a spouse dies, it wld be great to just go along with him/her since the love he gave is exhausted and u wld die without his love...hahaha

well just finish playing with the monk...told him not to waste his time...guess my morals got to the better of me...but better to nip such things in the bud before more things happen..tink i might haf hurt sum1 here unknowingly though...so sad...but i have my restrictions...beginning to fear if im gonna be afraid of commitment for a long time to come..i hope it doesnt get worse...

also jimmy was asking my bro on his blog for my blog..but me bro aint interested to noe where or wat it is...guess its dangerous...wonder if joyce will end up with him...frm the way he so explicitly placed such stuff on the blog...like snow aso...rather kiss and tell type...ill be panicking if im the girl involved...

anyway love...just a transaction..but in my terms, tian shi di li ren he...all the 8 characters have to match b4 goin any further...sumhow i keep thinking that things will happen exactly when i want them to happen..im 23 yet not 23...between vows...in between morals aso...well shdnt have the heart palpitate when its not spposed to i guess...or maby its gripping fear that stuff may become reality...whichever the case...im more for work rite now...which sucks yet im surprisingly alert...andi realised tt i have chapter 4 to go...arghz

ah Your tendency these days has been to keep more thoughts to yourself than you typically do, but now reality is kicking you in the butt. Good things will come back to you if you initiate any form of meaningful communication. You may not even realize how influential your own values are or what you bring to a situation, but others in your life appreciate you and now they can now help you in ways you haven't yet realized.


is this a sign?haha...gosh..its alreadi wed laioz...cancelled lecture cos guest lecturer nvr come...aniwae realised cannot play too much....just talked to daryl abt maur and he told me tt qixi cant graduate this term and cos she din realise muz do cfm...michelle ashley may be pres next term cos patrick likes her but i aint sposed to tell her tt aso...damn i wish i cld go to her performance ..she made me promise leh...sigh

tues:studied a lil todae...tt monk was quite original aso...txt me in cheena...haha but i aint falling for the bringing me into the grp thingy...stp jiawen gave him my number with a lame excuse..say tt he din ask for my name n wanna apologise...hahah

mon:was playing with huifen...chu chu shi peng you, di di shi huang jin...hahaha corny joke saying tt brother's name is huang jin...finalli cld eat abit with huifen...the fun part began at ktv...din realise my bro sat next to jiawen til he waved to me...aniwae saw chuyue n my bro talking aso...wonder wats goin on...smoky place lah...den sing duet with jiawn terrible voice!hahaha...had alot of laffs lah..wei wei is not bad actualli...den later song kang came...n my merciless ribbing began..tt jiawen was giving funny looks laioz...decided to beat him at his game...in future..haha

aniwae horoscope says tt i can be a bit more guo fen with others todae n get awae with it..hehehe as long as i dun cross the line..guess the ribbing was great fun to certain extent:>

call me in/with a dream and i will answer this is wat i got the 1st ting i woke up...anywae just concluded 3 on 3 on sat,yest....now with a bit of sun burn...but i like my tan..hehehe....

sat:super hot..had to wake super ear and keying picked bro,peiling n me up...so tired...my bro made sandwich for ky aso...so weird...in any case slogged the whole dae but had a lot of fun chatting with the others...zhikai "save" me frm the ball a few times n i was joking wah if realli save me ah den i will haf alot of responsibilities laioz..hahaha...n he asked abt my ring!use back my words to sae when i said tt ring was there becos it fit my finger:P

din go lunch with them tho...ate at home instead...caimin wanted to come i tink ....oh hengheng tapped me on my shoulder to remind him when the match drawing lots was gonna happen....hehhe...and the guys asked me to serve him the 1st drink we popped..ehhehe

overall quite eventful and grateful for other pplehelp..of cos aso with the teasing...chuyue n weiqiang n huiting..hehehe...dinnoe chuyue has APH!!!i wonder how wq will feel abt tt tho..hahah...no wonder he looked rather different on fri...theres stg abt luv i guess..hehehe

fri:bball!had new gals come in..quite know how to play kind..1 reminded me of melisssa 1 reminded me of the johore ivp gal...vv zun in shooting aso...huifen and huiling...ehehe...had fun playing lah mostly...talk cok session at dinner...cant even eat my food...tasts terrible...vergetarian tt dae summore...danny was trying to make me think of how pple in the club get together tt kind...and onli todae den i knew wq and chuyue got together..ehhe..like a mtter of conveneince...den we were talking abt salo...totalli confidential...now every1 wanna borrow...

thur:test todae!cant even put everyting in my brain!think may die ah...heng bio got go thru dna stuff..but nvr come out alot leh for test..me n huifen were piaing..and she was complaining abt the sunburn she got frm swimming and her back...we were just worried abt the results lah...damn...the usual corny jokes ..hahah. i saw marcus driving his dad's merc i tink...looked quite abc now...oh well~

wed:regret now cos din make use of chance to study properli..pia-ed the night awae onli to realise got 1 chpter dunneed study 1...waste time...cldnt slp properli like tt aso..was shown the william hung video when asked to do interactive art...so uncreative...aniwae chern wei'spulling out of the grp...dun realli care lah tho

tues:studied a lil and slacked a lil...wonder whats gone on with maur n gin laioz...since the call yesterdae...1 is resigned to fate, the other just tired...

mon:gin told maur tt he told me b4 hand tt they broke up when he asked me not to tell maur!oh tink i skipped lecture todae..din go for aaron's i tink..so boring aniwae..haha

(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:30 PM) :
haha wat do u want to find out?
dwayne knew maur since the pageant..dwayne n the rest were laffing at his name the first time i intro them!vv funny
Nigel (10:30 PM) :
heh.. what do i wanna find out...
how about me and maur?
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:32 PM) :
haha but u gotta tell me stg abt wat he was gonna sae 1st!

Nigel (10:32 PM) :
alright.. but you cannot let him know that i told you
Nigel (10:32 PM) :
deal? *sticks out pinkie*
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:33 PM) :
aiyo...ok loh..den wait for him to tell me den i tak bodoh:>
quik!!:>

Nigel (10:33 PM) :
we broke up
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:33 PM) :
+wrings off gin's pickie+
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:33 PM) :
ah no wonder.he sounded depressed
wat happen??

Nigel (10:33 PM) :
aiyah.. you so slow.. i tell you already then you wring my pinkie
Nigel (10:34 PM) :
he said he felt all the pressures keeping it a secret
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:34 PM) :
well i was hanging on to it till u told me the shocking truth..so shockin i had to wring off ya finger:-P

pressure?
i tot he was ready?

Nigel (10:34 PM) :
and really stressed.. that it's all wrong...
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:34 PM) :
but so how?wat abt u?how do u feel?

Nigel (10:34 PM) :
and also different personalities
Nigel (10:34 PM) :
sigh.. i also felt... empty...
Nigel (10:35 PM) :
cos i sense his distantness... then i kept asking him why he was a little cold to me
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:35 PM) :
wat?different personalities?he said u both were so alike!
ok frm the beginning...

Nigel (10:35 PM) :
yeah lor...
Nigel (10:36 PM) :
new year.. everyone kept asking why he not attached... then of course he had to lie.. plus his mum suspects something
Nigel (10:36 PM) :
so maybe that was the start
Nigel (10:36 PM) :
then it came me... i felt him feeling detached... then i kept questioning him... demanding why he ignored my while we were with frens
Nigel (10:36 PM) :
i guess he couldn't take it...
Nigel (10:37 PM) :
plus he felt guilty cos well... we're both catholics lah...
(-^_^-)RiKo(*o*) (10:37 PM) :
wait lemme absorb

Nigel (10:37 PM) :
haha.. ok...

wow that was rather heady...premonition actually..omen...maur talked abt it with me for the last 2 nights, mon n sun abt this...1st he bought elgin sandals den the hp strap thingy...omen ah!

mon:gin got my number frm maur's hp without him knowing and called me up last nite..tink he was crying abit?i dunno..tt poor fella cant cry cos he sleeps with his mum..he told me abt his famili in a vulnerable moment...i dunno lah....cant help him laioz....cant offer much comfort to him aso..he said i gave him hope...but false hopes...den i called maur he said gin told him of our conversation tt we werent suppose to let him noe den asked y i nvr tell him b4hand...

aniwae this huifen was mad..haha all thru the dae she was imitating the funny thing abt tuo qiang shi jie until tak boleh laioz..hahha i aso cldnt help it with the american idol thingy...everytime i think abt what randy did "ya mouth aint moving and it was like zhh zhhz hh" with his teeth closed and mouth moving vv funny! aniwae went to examine stuff under a microscope todae lah...had to wear lab gowns n gloves...audrey was there aso...saw her engagement ring..hehee...was thinking abt all the sex she had...haha

oh william hung remix is on radio..finally waited for it..haha..aniwae ben called me todae nd told me he saw karen's mum n dad laio and alot of awkward silence in between...said he felt a lil guilty..but definitely a closed chapter in their lives...i hope...muz move on....and aniwae we was suppsoed to meet but nvr in the end..guess he was tired lah..

talked to daryl after i knew of the matter...and he din even suspect y i called him..ahah...was telling me he went igors with qixi but food and theme sucked..haah hope they r happy birdie den:>


sat:vday!unlike the previous vdays i chose to stay at home...sleep and rotted abit with my videos...to clear...very happy printing stuff and arranging my notes..royal rumble todae aso!sum geek won..but underdog so i like

fri:1st bball since forever!so happi...taunting zikai and asking him to kiss my ass each time i scored...apparently he wanted to watch salo den kunning passed to him haven watch yet..hehehe...aniwae aso found out tt he cant take horror movies!and the secret abt qingxiang n huiting..is out!and he dared tell peiling tt we were rappin o wed...so pissed can..lucki his blog stated otehrwise...
and din realise it was fridae the 13th!huifen went to see her doc finally...slipped disc ah!

wed:i went to see the doc todae but not the usual 1..this time a man..so fierce...aniwae gave me alot of amoxylin lah...went to man booth after that with qingxiang..talked abt alot of things lah..den i realise on fri y he n meichan cant work out cos shes a christian...so funny..at the end of the dae..oh i saw shawn and yiming..bleah...din realli care lah..aniwae such an interesting conversation decided to walk the wae with me to engin to have lunch with peilin n kunning...well well...all will be known on vdae....tt he got together with huiting..ahhaha

AHHH i almost freaked out knowing how long it was since i blogged!aniwae meeting fl today...will update again....no breakfast...so i ate all my sushi!damn bloated now..ehhehe

oh had a dream tt i was at tang dynasty before skipping off to find fl...flooded everywer cos of heavy rain...saw quite a few attractions...and the floating restaurant?more like street theatre but flooded and the seats flipped over in the ocean..pretty scary for any1 to try sitting there..

ok aniwae i went to meet him to go salvation army...stayed there for a while only..not much interesting things lah..
showed him my autobiography tt book he bought for me..and we went to bugis after...saw tze min with her bf stayed a lil to chat but she was on the fone so din speak much..walked ard loh...blaming each other y i can forget his bdae and how he forgot we were supposed to go out last week..hehe

ah mon:so sian...huifen nvr go lecture so i skipped aso....went to watch southpark in th elib ins tead...and i found out tt holland v mark lee's gal wasn my sch!apparently biyun cant stand her...hahaha cos she alwis wear vv short shorts..and she was some winner of nussu pageatn...muz be legs or stg..hahaha

was trying to research for my ppt tis morn 1+ and tot ill make a booking for facial at bioskin...den skipped half of aaron's lect to go down there...hardsell man...ok lah..quite like the face afterwards...
cheena person attended to me..muz slip into a robe 1 summore....got electric shock to my face..ahha so funny...din haf my dinner:( den at last went dwn to ps carefour to buy sushi..and strawberries! ate 1 sushi onjthe way home...when i reached hom i gobbled down my dinner
hahahah...so paisey...i asked shuzhen if she had chicken pox but just alot of acne scars....huifen still bade meoodbye so loudly when i was sneaking out of the lect rm!hehehe...a bad of laffter as usual with her...heheh

aiya ingrid almost forgot i had to do my ppt...tt guy whu was doin with me still dare to like say my paper was like written by him like tt "i will not discuss that piece of paper tt was passed ard 1st"...so dumb...me n huifen turned to each other n shocked..hahaha

sun:recovering frm yest...saw danny online...almost scolded me for doin last min work...du my grn bio textbk n din wanna impose on others to send me answers so i went to the natl lib to see the bk...finished my assignment yet still muz pia for presentation...danny's pretty nice person...sae wanna help me find txtbk n stuff...nice to haf such a fren like him..realli....just hope tt its nutting more than tt tho...

sat:FUNKAMANIA!!zonghan was online asking pple aso...and den i decied to jiapalang every1 n form a big grp...so i first met john at somerset..headed over to taka...to find maur who wanted to kaopeh to optic pt abt his contact lenses...and john n him were trying on spex...den later zonghan came and we sat there damn long waiting for maur..in the end we dedcided to ta bao food frm kfc and met leroy...oh leroy came up to optic...dinnoe y he looked so familiar n he said i looked familiar aso...jus cldnt find the link...den aniwae saw alot of pple....junliang clicked my attn and joyce saw us at the stone lion...n i decided to go up aso...ben came with raymond and dazhi...n i saw jeremy far awae!cldnt call out to him tho..eunice teo...shingo..hahah...dinno he had a fan club...till michelle ashley told me on mon tt there were gers shouting for him...daryl's team got 3rd lah...and we were shouting to get mr cheong to stop tokin n give the results...later i found out tt leroy noes shawlin n wanen!ahhaha...and we went dwn to newton to eat...they finished my fish suop!!
ok loh...dazhi has this realli vulgar ringtone kanina cheebye 1...ahaha n they were exchanging it...n he was nice enuff to drive us home
n din even utter a sound over at our table...frankli i tink its vv irritating..or maby im pmsing now..hahah

fri:had to work loh...cant go dwn bball...so frustrated at lab tho i tot it was pretty interesting...copyinh lah...watched southpark with huifen n laffed aloud in the lib..got pples lookin at us and tinkin wat we were viewing
...went to buy keropok at yih and den ate half during lab...oh there was this guy whu was cursing n banged the door alter kena coaxed by fren to come back..i lowered my vol to hear wat was goin on..tink sum1 ger owe him money or stg..haha
scary man.....aniwae i met joyce on the way home n passed her the keropok to pass to others to eat...came bac to me via my bro..tink he aso tink stg wrong wif me..

oh din do my tut lah...aaron was like saying in jest tt shd be the last time or stg...
ahhah dun care lah

thur:fish keep telling me he got stg impt to tell me i keep tinking it was abt wanlyn...oh turns out she is his fren's jnr or stg...aniwae give me funny look aso...until i found out frm shihui tt one of his frens wanna noe me..duh...cos she sae every1 tink not compatible summore..had to book so mani seats-1 whole row for bio lect!so paisey...den had to rush to pc lab to do work..cldnt eat with them...
biblio for AS loh

wed:went to paragon earli in the morn to collect tt backpack for my mum...went to sch late and laden...cldnt meet maur in time so i went to engin for a while to jaga booth or stg...den awile i had to leave le..to take usb driver frm maur...rush here n there can die..and later met up with AS tutor to discuss my essay but not b4 i went to pc room to take dwn the qs n tink of sum pts...wah can die rushing here n there...went to lt12 summore!met qiuyan n told her i was having AS lecture there...when i sat dwn i tot it was pretty funny...den i realised it was wed n i shdnt be there!instd muz be at lt10 for 2210..told huifen tt...had a gd laff..hehehe

oh on the way to sch saw a bus got accident...injured pple were at the mosque there...

tue:was sposed to meet fl todae leh tink he forgot..he sms me later to ask..ehhehe..aniwae wasnt free aso..had to go bac to attend tan pin pin's lect...some experimental films...
changed tuition todae aso...in the end keep pushing to thur n fri...later found out tt sum1 kena accident n died..

mon:holidae!!!hari raya ...no programs on tv aso...its a blur...maby recovering frm the past few daes

sun:oh gone out with john..to ikea...but 1st went to his place to depo his books..his dad aso got keep birds like mine..his whole famili was there..so gay john is...too effeminate laioz...aniwae he sae i was the 1st peson to visit his place for cny cos all relatives r awae in msia...got 10 bux ang pow
went to eat at sakae at nite loh....totalli walked out when i dared him to without paying..den at the bottom of the stairs i looked at him n like wat?moral dilemma?haha...he scared he got karma...den he sae my saga seeds will help him overcome but in the end we all paid lah....din use the videocam tho..not in the mood to..not interested in his sexcapades(almost) stories....went home pretty earli i shd sae...sian
cos stomach not gd...
but hes very nice...gave me a ty bear...i used it to play with my rabbits..hehehe..made them curious for a while...

sat:ugh...long dae...dragged out of bed to slave...wanen came first so did a mini yusheng for her...forced her to finish all the food...my effort man...shaw was sick so she cldnt come...like my bdae last yr,aso sick!maur almost cldnt make it cos of ppt aso!but in the end did..had fun lah afterthe bballers came ....michelle's grp earliest after wanen left..showd them my room n stuff..tot danny came with them but he arrived in cab instead...cant fit in with daryl they all aso!so AS...but michelle kept toking to them vv fun...daryl dave me half a lapdance under the influence of qixi..ahaha so funny...later went up to sing karaoke loh...made maur sing aso....so mani pple came..in the end vv late ben n dazhi came..they werent informed tt the guys werent ard laioz..ehhehe...
aniwae was having such an absorbed discussion with the fellowship..hehehe...abt zhimin and caimin...swear not to let it out..alot of debates...ahhaah...they alter left lah...me ben n dazhi played poker n losers to finish watever food there is..hehehe
aniwae my bro has no target lah...so boring...went frm me to peiling to kunnin n realised where the source was ...keying n zhiming touchy feely i guess....terrible..
hahaha